if's

If someone needs help, I help them.
If I help someone, I expect something in return.
If I get something in return, I do not want it.
If I do not want it, I ask for friendship.
If I get friendship, I expect real friends.
If I get real friends, then they will see the real me.
If they see the real me, then they will know I love them.
If they know I love them, they know I would always respect them.
If they know I respect them, they should respect me.
If they respect me, then they will try to understand me.
If they understand me, they will know I am sensitive.
If they know I'm sensitive...why do they make jokes at my expense?
If they make jokes at my expense, maybe they don't know I'm sensitive?
If they don't know I'm sensitive, maybe they don't understand me?
If they don't understand me, maybe they won't try to understand me?
If they don't try to understand me, maybe they don't respect me?
If they don't respect me, then maybe I shouldn't respect them?
If I don't respect them, then maybe I don't love them?
If I don't love them, then maybe they won't see the real me?
If they don't see the real me, then maybe we're not real friends?
If we're not real friends, then maybe I shouldn't expect real friends?
If I don't expect real friends, then maybe I should not have friendships?
If I don't have friendships, then maybe I don't want them?
If I don't want them, then maybe I should not get something in return?
If I don't get something in return, then maybe I shouldn't help people?
If I don't help people, then maybe they will stop needing my help?